The old tree swing.

Time when u feel ur lost, for a long time, soo long that u have forgotten ur fundamental base-line, on which u have built ur life so far. Such moment inn.... even the "stone cold men" feel LOST. Yeah the real deep meaning of LOST.

I was in this crucial juncture n made my self totally a half dead and the other half? something else!

Child in a swing forgets everything he jus lives the moment of joy, delivery by that extreme heights of SWING. Same thing happened - almost.... which gave me, myself back..that's the bliss of "the old tree swing".

The mantra is.."YOUR happiness lies in ur hands" in a sense,the mantra boils down to analyzing what ur assets are, how you can maximize them n how you can play down your weaknesses. In my lingo, that is called SWOT analysis which is an abbreviation for Strengths, Weaknesses,Opportunities and threats.
That critical assessment is not the end. It is to b benchmarked against what u wish to be. And therein lies the rub. All of must have aspirations but the key to the modicum of contentment is to c that it is in lines with our findings of SWOT. We can certainly leverage our strengths n try hard to excel in life.....like that swinging child on that old tree.

Soul curry session! --over the cliff edge

Hmm....since long time,something was bugging my mind - unclear, making me restless all day long, stopping me from doing anything n every thing. Things started becoming very complicated even that simple daily works...my mind more n more unstable-totally. Making me feel bad (for what? god knows) an enigmatic energy sink driving away all my energy.

Music? feeling bored
Chatting with pals? making me more lifeless
a trek to forest? -- no way in mood.
At-least a self hypnosis session?...am falling in sleep in middle of session.
Hang-out with my girl? haaaa she will kick me if i comment here..hope u gt my point.

What the F**king hell is happening to me?

Maintaining the same tempo almost for a month suddenly one day..
After a hectic workout at office..on way back to home...a flash hit my dum brain

Am missing that introspective soul curry sessions. yup....that usually get's me the fuel dose required.

lee me c...is this gonna get me back the zing in my life..okkie..dockiee...am going an a cliff now, to cook..........................soul curry.

Love Chemistry!

Hey! Hi to everybody! Almost after 6 months am back in blogging, thanks to VK n D3 who inspired me to get back on track.

Let's get in to the post now! "Love" this word, makes everyone swing n float in there own world. Some has that stomach bubbling happy stories & some (I mean most of them) has that same old sagas in Love.

On Valentines day, i was in my village "Mantralayam" with totally spiritually zinged mood and in that moment,i got a call from my old pal..The moment i picked the call he asked "Whassup Naren! what's ur plans for the day?" n ....i gave a smile (A typical smile with a unique blend of vairagya and spirituality)i said him.... Mannnn......grow up! there is nothing like love n nothing like special lovers day.....

n he asked me WHY? (with a big curiosity to knw why i spoke like that)

I said its just Chemistry not love....(Like Every thing is maya..)

Question: Is There Really a Chemistry of Love?

My answer Like a Big GURU/Baba: I don't think there are any magic love potions that you can use to make someone fall in love, but chemistry does play an important role in how a relationship progresses. First, there's attraction. Nonverbal communication plays a big part in initial attraction and some of this communication may involve pheromones, a form of chemical communication. Did you know that raw lust is characterized by high levels of testosterone? The sweaty palms and pounding heart of infatuation are caused by higher than normal levels of norepinepherine. Meanwhile, the 'high' of being in love is due to a rush of phenylethylamine and dopamine. All is not lost once the honeymoon is over. Lasting love confers chemical benefits in the form of stabilized production of serotonin and oxytocin. Can infidelity be blamed on chemistry? Perhaps in part. Researchers have found that suppression of vasopressin can cause males (voles, anyway) to abandon their love nest and seek new mates. Hey, you gotta have chemistry!

The moment i finished my gyan bhodan....the next word 4m him: ....ya ya ur true...and he hanged the call giving an excuse "Hey i'll call u in a moment man, gt another call"

To summarize...how many of u think that, love is really a magical thing
or just, a body chemistry?

This is thy way i Function!

Hey guy! after a really long time my energy got dropped down today as i'm finally done wit a complicated chemical investigation. So tot to pendown abt some interesting aspects abt scientific temper.

Not all scientists are scientists in core atleast they dt look at themself as a scientist. Not all has that burning zeal to contrubute something to science. Few are scientists by name and few do research just to get a Dr title. And many of my fellow scholars work for PhD degree coz they get paid like hell after PhD,n last week i had conversation with one of my fellow scholar - the way he spoke abt his research really made me irr..

But i, the way i function is totally different and am proud of my sci temper. In starting days of my career i used b in a impression that all who do PhD dedicates their lives for science...but the true color was not that..

Let me take that liberty to draw the way i function (not to boast myself)
I feel, if u have that spirit and passion to do research its just a honeymoon period and i enjoy every moment of my romance with my research~am free to think and i can do that totally out of the box. For last few months when i'm completely tired working in lab till early morning 2am and the moment i get on bed, trust me, my mind still spins with 2000 RPM..and, i wanna sleep! but..i can feel my mind is so fresh and active that it just can't slowdown...and somehow i have learned to skip in to sleep....and the dreams....ohoo shakks!! in dreams all molecules and modeling the reaction the reaction mechanisms the electron charge cloud ohhoo every night in a fantastic dreamland oops in ChemLand :-).
Most of my friends and my parents ask me "Naren how can u work like this ?like a mad dog! rite from morning 10am to 2am?"- trust me i seriously dt knw how i can manage all this things and my sleep...

But when i introspect myself i c my self as an layman trying to do real science...i mean really real science,trying to know more n more abt the secrets of nature and to try unlock them...this love affair with science(chemistry) is soo deep deep that its my strength and its my weakness....

I have paid heavily in my life both personally and emotionally to reach this position as repute young scientist with lots of ups and downs and when i just look back the path i have traveled, i just wonder how did i manage to get such a good fame in scientific line..

Just tears rolls in my eyes with joy....and i love this tipsy.... my dreams! the dream i had in my 10th class to b a great scientist by awesome contributions and my dream chasing is ON ever since that day.
This is the scientific temper i have n this is the way i function.

Funny Rite?? but it's my passion and its my life....It's me!